my eyes and ears are pluged into the computer on a friday night as usual.
suddenly the dog begins to bark, i ignore it.
she keeps going and seems woried as my mom anwsers the door and and tells her to be quiet.
mom yells to me, she says that the dog was freaking out on dave...
Dave..that last word makes my heart jump into my head as i quickly lean back to see him,
but all i see is her friend and her husband who i then realized is dave
not my dave, not the person that causes me to ask for the world to never speak that name again,
unless they realy mean it, mean him.
stop taunting me with these false hopes please. its too much.
don't tell me it will be ok or that were just young
don't tell me things will work out or maybe things will mend themselfs together
because right now i dont believe you,i wont and i can't believe you.
because if i believe you then that means i have hope in this, and i cant
because i'll dwell, i know i will.
and i dont need any hope in this subject, it will only hold me back
and i have already been stuck here for a year, dont prolong my sentance please.
just plug me back in and give me a pen
i guess i have no choice but do just fine